Missing My Girl Friends
Today's been a bit of a rough day.
I know some great people in France, and I have quite a few friends here - people I could count on in an emergency. I'm really grateful for that. I promise. But they are also people that I would probably only call in an emergency, and visa versa. They're lovely people and would help out in a minute. But there's no way I'd feel comfortable calling them up to see if they want to come over so we can paint each others nails and bake cupcakes. I don't even have a shopping buddy.
I just want my friends back. Back in the states, there are at least 10 girls I can think of off the top of my head that I wouldn't hesitate calling - even if it was just to catch up and talk nothing in particular.
I've tried to make girlfriends here, but we never get passed that luke-warm friend phase. You know where you both think the other is a cool person, but you don't know anything too personal and you wouldn't call her up out of the blue?
I'm sure things will start looking up soon. Maybe when I start school or a job and I'm in a better environment to meet people? But in the mean time I want to send lots of love and a big thank you to all the awesome friends who've kept in touch and the awesome girls I've met who send encouraging messages.
It helps. A lot.